Let’s talk about what I am learning in college.
- College is an experience that binds many of us together. The best part of talking about college is getting to talk about how DAMN DIFFICULT IT IS. We reminisce over the difficulties of the finals weeks. We mourn over the hours of sleep lost. We groan about student debts. The silver lining to the struggle is…we can come together about how difficult and expensive the experiences are.
- Napping in places I never thought possible is one of the real life skills I am learning. Today in fact, I have reached a new level of exhaustion. Making my body move after working 20 hours and driving for 4 in the past 48 hours seemed an impossible task as I tried to will myself to go into the neighborhood grocery store so that I could get some frozen fruit for my smoothies. Aahhhh, smoothies <3 Anyhow, the insurmountable task proved to be too much for me to handle. So, instead of forcing myself to do what needed to be done, I gave in. I let my seat down. I reached over for my car blanket. And I napped. I didn’t even set my alarm; however long the nap was, that was how long it was going to be. During that hour long car nap, I was both the irresponsible mother, and the abandoned child left in the car in the grocery store parking lot. BUT, I left the A/C on for myself, because I simply could not handle getting myself taken away from me….
- I am learning whether I want to be the type of person who kicks ass and brings it and holds shit down even while being exhausted beyond belief, OR the type of person who makes sure to get adequate sleep and doesn’t have to fake having energy. I am realizing that I don’t have to pick just one: I can be both! Just depending on the situation, I can call for the wild, willful, Amazonian woman who gets the job done despite the fact that the lights are dancing around the corners of my vision because I have been sleeping 5 hours a night for the past 3 weeks. But that powerful she-beast can sleep peacefully in her cave during the moments when a well-rested, happy, and bubbly Monica has had her sleep. Goddess bless them both.
- Paying attention to detail is important. This one I learned after having to ask the professor of one of my two online summer classes to open up the THIRD assignment whose deadline I have missed this summer. I am not ever like this. Why am I like this? Honestly, a lot of it probably has to do with the fact that the assignments are only open and available for submission for 24 hours, and I am a human person with a LIFE. The other part of it has to do with the fact that most assignments are open until 11:59, NOT 11:30, as it was in this case. I think he shaved off that half hour JUST To see if we would catch it….This is why I have trust issues. As I was asking for the THIRD time if he would reopen it for me, I realized I wanted to come across with more confidence in my ability to handle the workload, and less apologetic grovelling for my inattention to stupid detail. Here are the results. He opened it back up for me (with no flack this time, ha!).
College is hard.
Distinguishing the shadow creatures in the corners from my eyes from my cat or actual ghosts is even harder.
The summer semester is almost over. Wish me luck.